The Syndicate

I love being transgender and feeling like I can be more open about what I like to be.

I hate the amount of difficulty I have to face about a choice I made for my own personal happiness.

I hate the reality that at times I gain pleasure from being in the state of suicidal.

I love the reality that I am able to dip in and out of that state while still alive.

I hate the competitiveness that comes from my lack of self confidence and insecurities I can't admit.

I love to play and compete with people I respect, and wish for others to respect me as I do them.

I hate the abandoned feeling that sprouts after being removed from the expansive internet that breeds awful mental habits and behavior.

I love the neighboring feeling that comes from being involved in this expansive internet that breeds comfort for who I am, and allows me to learn new behaviors.

I hate the past

I love the potential of my future

I hate the feeling of being cut off

I love the feeling music can supply me when I am void of feeling