I quickly read through the posts to catch up because I have just a little bit of time and am feeling up to mafia at the moment (and really don't want to die, and I feel there is at least some chance I could). I wasn't even sure if I would post anything, but I really have to address three things, just in case this is my last post, and even if it isn't, I want to.
First. Seriously. I know I have provided information regarding a family death, and at that someone very close to me, and I literally had just found out and was in total shock when I told the thread -- and at that very moment I did not want to play this game anymore at all. I also am getting busier with work and studying for the GMAT and I felt really overwhelmed. But I've been looking forward to this game for SO long and really want to continue playing it because whenever I have been showing up, I have been really enjoying it. I share all of these things because they affect my participation levels and I especially didn't know how much I'd be up to playing. I've said all this before. But I hate that other players are looking at me with special eyes because of it. Don't. If you think my in-game behavior is suspicious, vote for me. You'd be wrong, but you're entitled to do so. I am not any less worthy of a vote than anyone else.
Second, I've repeated my train of thought multiple times regarding my Vompatti vote on Day 1. Bea and juliets and anyone else who thinks this makes me bad, think again. Would you seriously think it would have been better for me to just "randomize" and that way you could not even tell my intentions as to whether I was hiding behind a vote I didn't want to explain or, the better option but still not great at all, randomizing among a list of players' names instead of going with something that I felt could best give us information? I acknowledged it was risky as hell even in my original post when I went with it. I even acknowledged that I disagreed with gleam and was not AT ALL latching onto his suspicions of Vomps. I just wanted to see what would happen when Vomps had two votes and there had only been three votes made. I felt it might have give us information more than any other option I could do at the time. If you disagree with my methods, fine. Go ahead. But I'm playing this game in a way I can best throw off the baddies and help accomplish my win condition. If you feel that makes me baddie, vote for me. But no one has one explained to me how my Vomps vote even makes me baddie. Even if Vompatti had been railroaded and lynched and flipped civvie, he could have been a sacrifice that led us to sorting out which players bandwagoned onto him nefariously and we could have nabbed a baddie on Day 2. There was any possible way it could have turned out. And for people to think that my intentions behind that vote were more nefarious than someone who just comes in and says "randomed ____" without any explanation, then I just don't understand.
Now one other particular post caught my eye upon skimming:
thellama73 wrote:Trust your instincts, Juliets. There's legitimate suspicion and then there's baddie railroading. I'm beginning to wonder if maybe this is an example of the latter, given the persistence and vagueness of the complaints against me. Nobody has given any specific reason to suspect me, and yet my name keeps getting brought up, sowing the seeds of doubt and suspicion among honest, hard working civvies like yourself (for I do believe you to be civvie at this point).
Every time MP posts he brings up my name, I answer his concerns, he says he thinks my response is reasonable, he disappears for a while, and then he comes back with another post suspecting me. I'm really beginning to feel like is trying to do me in because he knows I am civvie.
The bolded: This is just SO not true. If you are a civvie, then I don't know what's up with you this game, and I'm truly sorry. But this only makes me feel better about my opinion. I even said I was giving you the BOTD and I haven't been mentioning you all game.
Also, I'm disappearing for a while off and on clearly because of RL reasons. Every time I come in here and post in thread is literally all of the time I've been spending at this site and even nearly all the time I've been spending on the internet at all lately. I'm in a game on HV that just started up and unfairly to Dex and indi I haven't even been paying attention to it at all. I actually completely forgot about it until this morning and then realized I had to say something, so thought I might as well check the status here too.
Also, you of all people should know that reasonable does not equate to intentions. You and I share a similar gameplay style. Just because you and I are being reasonable says absolutely nothing about our intentions. I am just as reasonable as a baddie as I am a civvie and I'm the first to admit it. In fact, I might even be more reasonable as a baddie, because when I'm a BTSC-less civvie I'm all alone and have no one to bounce any of my interpretations off of.
Not a specific reason? Did I not give those? I felt you were suspicion mongering with Mongoose and Elohcin, that you thought you could lead a lynch on Hedgeowl, subtly, and that you've been trying to direct the thread -- but not in a civvie way but I am reading your intentions as sinister. Sure, I could very well be wrong, and so could Matt F. But it's all I've got right now.
I additionally feel like llama's response to Matt F's post was very much a baddie stuck in a corner, feeling as though he's being unfairly accused, and after seeing the tide of the thread change away from Hedgeowl to possibly him, I've seen him and the thread become more cautious. There are still only three votes. I feel there might be scheming behind the scenes going on right now. Keep an eye for players trying to drum up suspicions on players out of nowhere for weak reasons. I've been in llama's current shoes many times, and that's the feel I'm getting. Again, could be wrong, my guess is as good as anyone else's. I never said mine was ultimate authority. And that's precisely why I wanted others to contribute their thoughts as much as possible. But that's just my thoughts on him.
I feel terrible even making the case against you because I can empathize entirely with your situation; we both garner a ton of attention in games due to our styles and it often results in our lynch. But I can't let that affect my judgment of how I'm currently reading the situation. If you do get lynched and are civvie, I would say accept my apologies, but I will not be sorry, because I have given this game literally every single bit of effort I possibly can, and I will not apologize for pursuing an interpretation I believe to be most worthy right now. You of all people should understand this, and should accept the situation, especially given it is Day 2.
And I do feel a bit wary of a few of those jumping onto my suspicion of llama. I feel
far from sure about all of this. It's mostly my gut interpretation of his intentions. I do agree that Matt F's observations are notable. It's funny you mentioned juliets, Matt, because I'm not too sure I've been seeing a civvie JC here either, but didn't want to mention her just yet because I really am on the fence about her, and it's so early in the game so it's hard to interpret intentions using so little to go off on. Your observations were interesting nonetheless, BUT, I really feel there are a few players latching onto the suspicions that you and I have drummed up.
The more I'm seeing of Vomps's game, I'm wondering if he's baddie here. The way he really latched onto Matt F's post seemed weird to me. Far from sure, but it's something that also struck my mind as I was reading through. That's all I have on him though.
I also am still a bit wary of Devin... just not sure what to make of his intentions quite yet.
My thoughts surrounding most players are very ??? at this point, but that's what I got. I have to go now as I have many things to do and won't be back until... maybe Saturday night, but I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a really rough day for me (the funeral/viewing is in the morning), so it might not be until Sunday, and even then I don't know how I will feel or what all I will have going on.
before I pulled myself off the computer. Their heads could have been in a different place. They could have been baddies using my playstyle against me. Lots of things go wrong by relying too much on what a people have done in the past. New ideas and new perspectives help us who play across several forums with the same group of people over and over again in our place. Keep thinking and keep posting!
My role is not as fun as being Sander Cohen and there's no one for me to talk to off thread. That said, Yes, I would like attention on thread 
this makes think of, "by your powers combined, I am Captain Planet!" Anyone ever do a Captain Planet mafia? 
