Random~

#1202

so no way to visit q.m.

#1203

A Person wrote:so no way to visit q.m.

Since I can't buy a $500 plane ticket and I doubt my mom would let me go if I did, yes.

#1204

#1205

Peas porridge hot

#1206

slwo windows xp is lsow

#1207

Colin Farrell Is A Romantic Thief Lost In Time In First Winter's Tale Trailer

#1208

Looking through old conversations:

"you know a lot more than every other 15 year old"

"I wouldn't know"

#1209

Pancakes are round and yellow, so they represent the Sun.

#1210

#1211

I had macrobiotic vegan sushi today. Tofu, kale and purple rice wrapped in seaweed. It is the whitest thing you can eat. I feel like Gwyneth Paltrow. Everyone is making fun of me, but it was dang delicious.

#1212

I've not had sushi, super white vegan version or not.

#1213

Vompatti wrote:Pancakes are round and yellow, so they represent the Sun.

You wish.

#1214

i wish for pancakes

#1215

I wish for world peace

#1216

OMG NEW DEATH GRIPS

#1217

#1218

Death Grips, the experimental hip-hop group, released a new album today.

#1219

A Person wrote:OMG NEW DEATH GRIPS

YES!!!

#1220

A Person wrote:Death Grips, the experimental hip-hop Vaporwave group, released a new album today.

#1221

Poop on a stick

#1222

There's no Vent here, is there?

Cause I could really use a good OT, "F*ck you" right now...

#1223

Or maybe a, "F*ck me"...

#1224

What's going on ?

#1225

Mongoose wrote:What's going on ?

Seconded.

#1226

Oh, I just had some frustrations on my mind yesterday. It was a bit amplified by dissociation too.

#1227

Mister Rearranger wrote:There's no Vent here, is there?

Cause I could really use a good OT, "F*ck you" right now...

You could start a Vent thread you know.

#1228

#1229

#1230

I'm writing a song that sounds like this right now k

#1231

BoatsBoatsBoats wrote:blah

Can I just say that I really really enjoyed this? I don't make gratuitious compliments unless I have to; I usually don't say anything, butt this is very good k :O

#1232

:OOO

thnaksnkksn :3

#1233

It really is quite good. And yes, Lizzy is not one to gush for those that don't deserve it!

#1234

Dad moves out today, hooray

(Not really hooray)

#1235

BoatsBoatsBoats wrote:Dad moves out today, hooray

(Not really hooray)

#1236

I don't really know how to feel at this point.

The past few months, a rapid succession of people have left my life (for better and worse), and while it's not as though I'll never see my dad (hell, he's often gone most weekdays anyway), it's this final act that really makes me examine the reality of it all.

Sure, my dad was hardly around before he left. Yeah, he and my mom fought a lot in a traumatizing manner and the worst has been long gone, but him leaving the house we've lived in for 12 years is definitely the final nail in the "this is a reality" coffin. I've been pretty angry today and snapped a couple times. I don't even know if that was related to what's happened, but I'd assume it would be. I still am, in fact.

#1237

I hope whatever happens next is better than what has happened previously, in any case.

#1238

A Person wrote:

I hope whatever happens next is better than what has happened previously, in any case.

Thanks

The first person to tell me "it gets better" is losing their neck.

#1239

...ture butt we're here for you k

#1240

Hang in there! And ditto Lizzy.

#1241

BoatsBoatsBoats wrote:I don't really know how to feel at this point.

The past few months, a rapid succession of people have left my life (for better and worse), and while it's not as though I'll never see my dad (hell, he's often gone most weekdays anyway), it's this final act that really makes me examine the reality of it all.

Sure, my dad was hardly around before he left. Yeah, he and my mom fought a lot in a traumatizing manner and the worst has been long gone, but him leaving the house we've lived in for 12 years is definitely the final nail in the "this is a reality" coffin. I've been pretty angry today and snapped a couple times. I don't even know if that was related to what's happened, but I'd assume it would be. I still am, in fact.

Boats. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. It's always hard when a family splits up. In my own case, I was lucky in that I was old enough to understand that it was better for both my parents and us as children as they were a pretty toxic couple, but it didn't make it any easier. Especially as we older kids had to decide which parent to live with. It was rough. Stay with mom and our younger siblings or go with dad. Which, was what we did. We were old enough to understand that dad needed his kids too. But it was hard. It was hard to be separated from my little siblings and my mom.

And while as I grew even older, it didn't get easier, but it was easier to understand what happened and how they ended up where they were. It was easier to forgive them of their faults and love them as they are rather than the parents I expected them to be. But it wasn't better. It's never better and it's something that affects us as a family even today.

I'm near 40 years old and getting married in 2 weeks. And when we first planned the wedding it was strictly no family allowed for a long time. In part because the groom's family was not able to travel and in part because I was worried about my parents being together again for such a long weekend even *with* their new respective spouses (whom I adore.) Also, because while my mother has fallen into a pretty comfortable retirement, my father has not and I knew he would not be able to afford the trip. I'm blessed in many ways as I have the most wonderful siblings who decided that their wedding present to me was going to be sending my dad to the wedding. Now I'm not sure due to other circumstances if my mom will be there or not. It's not easy because it's not right to have one parent there and not the other. While I understand what's happening and I'm a big girl and I will make the very best of the situation I'm given, it's not easy, nor is it better. And it's something only children from split homes can understand.

Be angry when you need to be angry. Be sad when you need to be sad. Be happy too, when you need to be happy because maybe now both of your parents can find a match that's right for them. Or find some happiness in their solitude. The people that love you will understand that you are going through a rough time right now and need a little space.

Please don't hesitate to shoot me a pm or anything if you need someone to vent to or talk to. I have been where you are and I know what a crappy hand you've been given to play with right now.

#1242

Boats, I don't know you, but it sounds like things are rough.

Hope you're doing okay, much respect for keeping a level head and voicing your feelings.

Random: It hasn't been a very good week, but I still feel like this for no reason at all:

#1243

Hope everything is going okay, guys!

#1244

I think this is the first time ever that I've put in a full 8 hour day in my little recording studio. Loving what's happening.

#1245

Does the new album have a theme? Could this be your magnus opus?

#1246

Mister Rearranger wrote:Boats, I don't know you, but it sounds like things are rough. Hope you're doing okay, much respect for keeping a level head and voicing your feelings.

Random: It hasn't been a very good week, but I still feel like this for no reason at all:

MR!!! So happy to see you over here!! Welcome btw!!! I'm sorry to hear that you've been having a yuck week. Most of my weeks are yuck too. I can relate.

Epignosis wrote:I think this is the first time ever that I've put in a full 8 hour day in my little recording studio. Loving what's happening.

Can't wait to hear what's happening!

#1247

Mongoose wrote:Does the new album have a theme? Could this be your magnus opus?

The theme is how old gods linger like ghosts in our supposedly "enlightened" civilization- no one needs a graven image to worship what they do. What's interesting is that almost all of the material going on this album is very old- some of which I wrote when I was 19. It's fascinating getting to revisit this stuff and rework it using my accumulated experience and technology.

I also pay tribute to my two most favorite poems in literature.

bea wrote:
Epignosis wrote:I think this is the first time ever that I've put in a full 8 hour day in my little recording studio. Loving what's happening.
Can't wait to hear what's happening!

Thanks bea!

Here's the current track list:

1. The Old Gods Remain
2. Earth of Brass
3. Some Peculiar Alchemy
4. What the Thunder Said
5. Ianus
6. Of Thieves and Kings
7. The Narrow House
8. Stalemate

#1248

bea wrote:
MR!!! So happy to see you over here!! Welcome btw!!! I'm sorry to hear that you've been having a yuck week. Most of my weeks are yuck too. I can relate.

*waves*

Hi, Bea! Good to see you too. Thanks for the welcome!

#1249

#1250

Epignosis wrote:
Mongoose wrote:Does the new album have a theme? Could this be your magnus opus?
The theme is how old gods linger like ghosts in our supposedly "enlightened" civilization- no one needs a graven image to worship what they do. What's interesting is that almost all of the material going on this album is very old- some of which I wrote when I was 19. It's fascinating getting to revisit this stuff and rework it using my accumulated experience and technology.

I also pay tribute to my two most favorite poems in literature.

bea wrote:
Epignosis wrote:I think this is the first time ever that I've put in a full 8 hour day in my little recording studio. Loving what's happening.
Can't wait to hear what's happening!
Thanks bea!

Here's the current track list:

1. The Old Gods Remain
2. Earth of Brass
3. Some Peculiar Alchemy
4. What the Thunder Said
5. Ianus
6. Of Thieves and Kings
7. The Narrow House
8. Stalemate

I am anxious to hear the album :O